A former Teen Mom star is navigating complicated feelings after the death of her biological father. Kailyn Lowry shared the news of Raymond Lowry’s death in an episode of the Barely Famous podcast.
As she began the podcast, Lowry bluntly shared, “This episode is an introduction for me into the ‘Dead Dads’ Club.”
She explained he died “exactly two Mondays after I saw him.” Lowry spent time with him in Waco, Texas, for only the second time in her life, on September 15. He died on September 29.
During the visit, which she made because she knew he was dying, she cried “for the entire two-hour visit.” Lowry noted she had spent 30 years thinking he didn’t care about her and betrayed her. Now, she knows that wasn’t accurate.
Lowry learned that he had tried to make contact with her. “It’s going to take some time for me to process this, and really, I don’t know, come to terms with it,” she realized after the visit ended.
“He doesn’t know how much peace that visit gave me. I wanted to tell him, I thought I was going to have a chance to tell him before he died,” Lowry admitted.
The Teen Mom Alum Found Closure Through Her Visit
The Teen Mom star is also estranged from her mother, and she said this experience with her father doesn’t change her feelings about her mom. She said any reconnection with her mom would be solely to resolve the contradictions between what her mother and father had told her.
During the podcast, Lowry noted that the only other time she ever met him was when she was 17. She didn’t think she’d ever spend time with him again, but when her aunt said he was dying, Lowry decided she had questions that needed to be answered.
She admitted that she had “struggled my whole life with being angry,” and she didn’t want to feel that way anymore. Lowry asked her father tough questions, such as why he left her.
Lowry learned that her father’s absence “was court-ordered after he tried to kidnap me. He did kidnap me and took me to the hospital once,” she revealed.
She also noted that her mother “simply didn’t like him.” Lowry noted, “My dad did not abuse my mom. My dad did not have an addiction. My dad was not an alcoholic.”
“He said that he sent me a necklace at one point, and it was returned back to him.”
In addition, Lowry said she had been told by her mom that she was named after someone in a soap opera.
However, she learned from her father that she and her younger sister were both named in ways that honored his favorite place, Hawaii, where he was stationed during his time in the military.
She also learned that in the early days, he attended every court date regarding her for two years, driving from Texas to Pennsylvania. For all these years, she had “misplaced anger” because “I didn’t know that he was trying.”
The Teen Mom alum admitted she’s struggling to understand why she’s so emotional, given that she never had a relationship with him. “Am I even allowed to cry about it? Like, it’s weird,” she shared.
“All of my feelings were misplaced, and I don’t know what to do with them now,” Lowry added.
Despite all the questions she still has and all she learned, Lowry said she believes that the visit with him provided closure. She does wish, though, “I would have just gotten the opportunity to tell him, I’m not mad anymore, I really appreciate the time that you gave me.”
